Boring Lives and Hip Bones!

Hello everyone! Sorry I haven't posted in 3 days but a lot of things have been going on lately, but I don't want to get into that right now. Anyways I haven't weighed yet but I do plan on weighing Tuesday. I don't feel like I have lost anything, it feels more like I have gained so tomorrow I am going to walk 3 miles and I will eat my fingernails if I put anything with fat in my mouth! I am hoping that because I am almost off of my period that I will have dropped a pound or two at least. If I can have that pound or two gone it just mean I'm a step closer to my goal. I don't have much to say other than I think my title is so out of proportion lol. XstaystrongX

Morning

Well good morning everyone. I just woke up and I'm having the worst cramps in history I swear! I started and I'm bloated and now I can't way till I get off of it cus I hold way too much water during my period to even think of weighing, but I do have good news atleast hehe. Anyways me and my sis walked 2 miles last night and I felt amazing because I had about 800 cals yesterday and I burnt off around 200 so my total was 600 cals and which I believe I can do better but so far not too bad. Some more bad news though is my entire town is covered in smoke even as of this morning. The town town was horrible last night when my sis and I went to the track but it's still bad too because of no f***ing rain. Last night those 2 miles felt great but my eyes were burning by the end of it. Anyways somewhere in town yesterday a few acres caught on fire and now its turned out that over 1,300 acres are burning to shit. So yeah that's my morning to you lol. So if anyone out there is reading this, stay strong because your worth the fight! XstaystrongX

Hello

Hey there peoples, sorry it took so long to get back online. I have been so stressed out lately and my computer hasn't been plugged up either so I almost went crazy without it. Anyways here's the news; I am still 193, sucks I know, only because I quit trying for alil while but I have fantastic news to share! My sister has an ED like me. I never knew, of course she's alot bigger than me but she's lost 14 pounds in 2 weeks I mean the girl is a beast so now we are doing it together! I'm so happy I could scream you have no idea. I love the shit out of my lil sister lol. So yeah I am more excited than ever because I have a relative that can be my Ana buddy, yay! I'll be sure to keep everyone updated on this glorious news and I hope everyone is doing fantastic. XstaystrongX

Nothing To Lose and Nothing To Gain ):

Well just as the title says, I didn't lose or gain, but I am starting this whole cleansing thing that I found in my medicine cabinet that I must to have forgot about because it's never been opened so it's supposed to make me have like 2-3 bowl movements a day. Anyways I think I can use this for a month and then you have to take a break from but if it helps me have regular bowl movements then I am so trying it because I haven't had a regular bowl movement since I was like 12. 
What sucks is I hardly ate anything yesterday I mean I had like 500 cals! maybe that was just too much...and what sucks is I am out of freaking cigarettes and I'm going to go into fucking DTs if I don't get one soon! Stay strong ladies and I'll be back later on tonight because I plan on weighing myself again.!
XstaystrongX

2 Pounds to a Difference!!! Plus a Story...

Well I got on the scales this morning and I am 2 pounds lighter, yay! Unfortunately the adipex that my aunt gave me yesterday morning has worn off and I'm starting to feel hunger pains and nausea. I need those fucking pills so badly! Yes, I am in rage right now because nothing has ever made me feel repulsed by food when I look at it. Anyways I will battle it out until I can get some more and hopefully I will lose down to my first goal weight of 185!
For those of you that do not know me, and think I'm using this as just a weight loss treatment your a fucking moron because the guys and the girls that are wannabeAnas needs to be the ones that are hospitalized. I have had a distorted image of myself since I was 13 and I was over 220 pounds so this is my story of how I found my Ana. 

So one morning I woke up and I thought  I would weigh myself, just to mess around because I was curious. Well as I stepped on the ice cold surface of those old scales it went straight passed 220 and I cried, I sat on the floor and cried, and I swore that I would lose the weight no matter what! So I started doing small things like cutting back on coke, and pepsi, and any other kind of soda. After that I lost a few pounds and I was really happy with myself. Then I started only drinking water and eating less bread and more veggies and also cutting out fried foods, I could tell this was helping because before I knew it I was below 200 and I got excited! So I started looking at thinspo and it helped me want to lose the weight so I looked, and looked, and looked some more! What I found was a site called Pro-Ana.com ofcourse I had no idea what it was at first so when I clicked on it all of these beautiful pictures, and tips, and other people showed up, and it talked about distorted images, pain, stress, weight, etc. I realized all of the feelings, the way I looked in the mirror, the way I counted cals all day long was not just my diet, it was Ana. She had buried herself inside me and was telling me everything to do, and I loved it! I started losing more and more weight and before I knew it I was 143.4 pounds which was the lowest I have ever been in my life. 
Then I met the love of my life. I had known him about 3 years prior to that date but I had lost a lot of weight and a lot had changed. He was so cute when we went on our first date, I knew I was in trouble. He was so charming and sweet my heart sank, and he cured everything, I mean everything! I wasn't in a depression anymore, I saw my body as perfect, and I fell very hard. So in 4 months we will be together for two years, and in those two years I have gained a whopping 58 pounds...


So yes that is the story. Now I am trying to lose my weight again, and I've told him a little about my disorder and he just doesn't understand, so it's better if I keep it from him. Well this is it for now. I hope if anyone is even reading this that you will comment, add, or follow and let me get to know you! XstaystrongX

P.S. How did you find Ana?

Pounds

Hi everyone,

I'm back and I feel pretty good about everything atm. I have actually lost 6 pounds in 5 days and it's all because of my great, weight crazy aunt that loves her diet and water pills, in which she calls her medication haha. She is so awesome and I know for a fact I had probably less that 2500 cals in 5 days! Which means I had around 500 cals a day while over there. I am so super proud of myself. I didn't think I would be able to get back on track this easy, or even be able to loose the weight, but I believe Ana has picked me back up into her arms again and will show me my way to perfection! So as I was saying before I started daydreaming like a loony lol, I am going to try to get on these diet pills that my aunt takes called Adipex! She gave me one everyday I was there. This is one of the most amazing pills I have ever taken in my life. I have so much energy I could exercise all night long and I won't eat anything all day, plus I don't even get dizzy. I'm telling you this is the best diet pill you will ever take in your life and trust me in my 5-6 year experience of having EDNOS It's the one that actually, and truly works wonders! I'm gonna go to the diet doctor as soon as I get some money and that way I can get those beautiful white and blue pills, and plus the water pills help alot also. 125 here I come! XstaystrongX

Good and Other Shit!

Well everything has been pretty shitty lately, but it's more about family than anything else. My weight is fine and I've been doing really good lately. I'm really tired because my parents are on the edge of a divorce and I'm just not sure what to do. I haven't been hungry at all lately which is a good sign. I've had about 800 cals today and I'm not gonna be eating anything else till tomorrow. I'm trying to see if  I can get back into fasting as soon as possible, because it's the best way for me to start a good diet, and since I've been out of practice for about a year I'm still trying to get back into the groove of calorie restriction and it seems to be working pretty well. Anyways I have to get going. I'll be offline for a few days which sucks because I'm going to stay with my aunt, but that's okay, I'll stay strong for myself and all I have to do is believe! XStaystrongX